I wish I were . . .
I wish I were able to answer this question glibly and humorously.
Here’s the thing. I can’t really think of anything that I wish were different in my life.
I’d like to be thinner and healthier, but that’s something I can accomplish if I make exercise a priority and don’t indulge every Boston cream or cheese pizza craving.
Sometimes I’d like to live closer to my family of origin; other times, I appreciate the hour’s distance between us. I’m close enough to visit but far enough away to have my own life.
I’d like to be a published writer, but again, that’s a goal I can work toward.
I wouldn’t mind having the chance to do my undergraduate years again with the wisdom I have now, but in some ways, I’m also grateful for the path I took. I met interesting people and learned a great deal. I know now where my talents and interests lie. I’ve stopped making excuses and now either investigate ways to make something happen or admit that it’s not a priority.
I’d like a loving partner, but I also like my freedom. I had two long-term relationships and several short-term relationships before my last one, and more often than not, I felt restricted somehow. I censored opinions that didn’t agree with theirs, and I committed to things I didn’t particularly want to do. I know the latter is called “compromise” and it’s part of healthy relationships, but right now I enjoy being able to spend my time, money, and energy as I see fit. I also know I’m not quite ready for a relationship. The loss of Love of My Life So Far is still too raw, and I don’t want to hurt a man who’s excellent in his own way because he comes up short in my view. It’s not fair to that man.
So right now, I can’t think of anything that I wish were different. Maybe, “I wish I were a Powerball winner,” but that would require buying a ticket, and gambling bores me.
All told, I’m grateful for what I have and who I am.
If you also want to participate, you’ll find this week’s challenge here: http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2012/10/29/weekly-writing-challenge-i-wish-i-were